A couple of years ago while my little guy was still pretty young I had someone say to me, “What are you going to do if Cole is gay?” WHAT! Where did THAT come from?! I remember it turned into a heated discussion and an attack on what I believe to be true.
Now before some people want to attack me hear me out. Growing up I always said I wanted a gay best friend. It wasn’t until my mid 20s when I gave my life to Jesus did my option change. This is not about what I believe regarding this topic but to demonstrate I’m not a Christian “gay hater” but more of a love the sinner (ALL people are sinners) but don’t like the sin (just like murder, or stealing or telling lies). So because of my belief in Leviticus 18:22 “Do not have sexual relations with a man as one does with a woman; that is detestable”, this is something I do believe in and that question got my blood boiling. I believe our words have power and something spoken like this could cause a lot of damage. I went home and called my best friend crying! I was devastated and couldn’t understand why someone would say that! I prayed over Cole and moved on, until it happened AGAIN! I handled myself better but still left in tears. The 3rd time I was just down right ticked!
I had resolved to pray over Cole ever night that he will have a loving wife, kids who honour him as their father and that he will be a mighty man in God’s kingdom. In my opinion there was no other way to fight this than prayer, but, the seed had been planted deep inside me, what if?! NO….Push that thought out!! Then I would see Cole play with his sisters dolls and I would calmly take it out of his hand and give him a truck.
Purple is a colour he often notices but I would then point out all the “masculine” colours. A lie has been birthed inside me and I wasn’t fully aware of it until a powerful weekend away.
Every year my small group (or, Bible study) and I go away for a weekend retreat. We focus on God, building relationships with each other and having FUN!!!! I had made up cardboard boxes that said on top different things, and one was “lies I’m believing”. Later that night we were burning the boxes and the lies! I knew I had this deep lie I was believing about my son and I needed it gone. As I wrote it out on the card, and later that night watched it burn I felt a release, a freedom from this lie!!!! I now know not to doubt in darkness what was spoken in light. Don’t let other people’s lies about you, your family etc, to take root because often its a way to take you off becauserse God has planed for you.
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